Rise and Shine

Surgery is tomorrow, ahhhh. Actually I'm doing pretty well, Peter is too. Shorty Jordy had her pre op today and it wasn't nearly as bad as I had pictured. I've been up since 3am and am supposed to get up at 3am again to give Jordan her "last meal" then we have to leave the house at 4:50am, holy crap! it's officially worse then labor :)

Jordan in her gown haha cute!

Pre op started off with the usual vitals routine, where we found out she has lost a little more weight, stinker. BP, pulse ox, Heartrate, ekg all looked good. 

This is Jordan's shout out to Jolie's Right leg at the oscars:)

Next stop was blood work. It's never fun to see your kid cry but Jordan cried for the giant rubber band tied around her arm not the actaul needle, haha we couldn't help but laugh a little at that, poor baby girl. She calmed down quickly and all was good. Now I don't know if it's just Peter's and mines coping technique but we laughed our asses off at how they gave Jordan her chest x-ray, I'm sure it helped that she smiled the whole time like it was a giant game. 

Touchdown! 

Our big girl getting chest x-rays, hahah

Sorry if that disturbs some people but we truly think it's hilarious. All is well here and I need to head off to bed, if I can, I'm sure I will write more tomorrow while we wait the 6 hours to be reunited with out sweet baby girl. Thank you everyone for your thoughts and prayers.

2 steps forward...

...1 Step back :(

we are 5 days out from Jordan's surgery and today started our marathon of appointments, we have 1 almost everyday until surgery.  Today was a regular cardiology appointment where I was really looking forward to them telling me, "Jordan's 12 lbs! Good job mom!". Nope. Poor thing LOST 4 ounces in the past 2 weeks, dammit! Shorty is now down to 11 lbs 1 oz, that's below the 5th percentile which if she wasn't having her surgery next week would put her in the category of Failure to Thrive. She has not been diagnosed with that, she just meets the criteria.
Jordan's regular cardiologist is out of town so we had to see an associate, I wasn't a fan. She told me Jordan can only have breast milk/formula bottles (we call them her protein shakes) and that I shouldn't nurse her anymore, at all. Screw that! I completely understand that she needs more calories which is what she gets through her protein shakes and I have no issue giving her the bottles throughout the day, but as for right before bed and in the middle of the night I WILL nurse her. I couldn't believe a female doctor was telling me to not nurse my 4 month old baby especially when her regular male doctor said I can absolutely do so.  Unbelievable.

If you give a girl a nickel

If you give a girl a nickel, she'll want to put it in her piggy bank.
When you give her the piggy bank, she'll tell you she swallowed it.
You ask her where the nickel is and she says "in my belly".
She'll probably start crying because she has nothing to put in the piggy bank.
After she calms down, you tell her we have to go see the doctor.
She'll get so excited she'll think the doctor will take her nickel out.
The doctor can't take the nickel out so she'll have to get pictures...
of her belly
The girl will want to see the pictures.
When she sees the pictures, she'll see the nickel.
And chances are if she sees the nickel
She'll want to put it in her piggy bank.

Maybe in 1-3 days we will find the actual nickel haha fun times for mom and dad :/

Best V-Day EVER

I thought Peter being home was a great valentines day gift but I can honestly say after spending 9 valentines days together this one wins and I'm pretty sure nothing will ever top it :) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L3sQ77BczkQ

some yummy heart and mini m&m pancakes

Jail Break

With shorty Jordy's surgery date quickly approaching we have been put essentially on "house arrest" to minimise germ exposure. I've been doing my best to keep Leyah occupied because I know how hard it is to be stuck in the house, poor kid. This past week we colored pasta and made necklaces which was super fun until she started to eat the pasta haha ok Monica Gellar :) I also cut out paper hearts and had her glue tissue paper to them, easy peasy. We made 4 for our family, cute right!? My favorite activity was making chocolate dipped pretzel rods today though. The plan was to have her actually help but that quickly turned into her just eating everything, I should have known. After she finished eating her weight in chocolate I semi ignored her so I could finish up the pretzels, boy was that a mistake. After about 10 mins of her "behaving" she comes running into the kitchen laughing and talking about my phone as she hands me the phone completely submerged in a glass of water, doh. Thus begins our "jail break" of leaving the house in search of a new phone. Please keep in mind I do not have a smart phone ahaha it's an old school candy bar nokia which I'm pretty sure cost me $20, but I loved my ghetto phone, parting is such sweet sorrow ;( The closest T-mobile is the mall, yuk, so we ventured out in this arctic tundra and germ infested mall only to be told that T-mobile doesn't sell just phones without a plan upgrade, WHAT?  A phone store who wont just sell you a phone, what is wrong with this world. I was told to go to wal-mart, haha well damn if I knew that HA.  We eventually make it to wally world and I am now a proud new owner of an Alcatel?

Macaroni necklaces

fun times with pasta

Our family hearts

Yummy chocolate dipped pretzels

haha I had to add a cute one of Jordan too

I need a hug

Peter's been gone for just under 2 weeks now and we have another 2 to go. I swore I'd be going to the gym everyday and HA don't you know today was the first time I actually made it. Right when I think I got the hang of this whole 2 kids by myself thing down my cell phone rings, damn you cell phone! It was Dr. Jonas, Jordan's surgeon, letting me know that we need to move up her surgery! Originally it was scheduled for March 20, I've mentally prepared myself for that date, scheduled a hospital tour, blood work, and other various appointments not to mention had everything planned out for little miss Leyah. When he said they had an opening for next week all the moisture was sucked out of my mouth and I'm pretty sure I turned all shades of pale and paler. Holy shit! What did he see in her cardio. chart that suddenly made this an "urgent" matter? And Peter's not even home yet!  Peter and I had a discussion before he left about what we would do if something like this would come up, we decided that Jordan and her health is way more important then me not wanting to go it alone and him not wanting to miss it. Screw that! Not really, but I do want my husband here. Luckily, I think Dr. Jonas heard the panic in my voice when I told him Peter was out of the country and we ultimately agreed on a surgery date of February 29th. This is a whole new ball game. Our six weeks has now been cut to three, two of which I'm still husbandless. I don't think I have ever made so many phone calls in a 3 hour period in my life. I was on fire, no seriously like literally I had the damn oven self cleaner on and it was 86 degrees in the house hahaha. But I was super efficient, I surprised myself. I got EVERYTHING rescheduled to co inside with the new date. During me running around and making phone calls Leyah was fantastic. I couldn't have asked for her to be more well behaved; it's as if she knew I needed to do this. After the initial shock and run around was over I was drained, all I wanted was a hug from my husband and for him to tell me it's alright we will be ok, Jordan will be ok.  I turned to Leyah and I told her I was sad and I just wanted a hug. She gave me the biggest hug and rubbed my cheek and told me "you my best fwend". OMG I LOVE HER! The rest of the night consisted of us making pita pizzas and both girls falling asleep on me on the couch. Everything will be ok.


"Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day". - Author Unknown

Paranoid?

With Jordan's surgery just 6 weeks away I find myself treating her like she's so fragile, I try not to but she's just so small. Every time I think yes she's bigger some nimrod at the mall or grocery store wont stop going on and on about how small she is for her age. I usually just smile and keep repeating that yes we know she is small, I should just play the, make you feel like an ass hole card, and tell them about her heart but I don't because I know it would turn into a pity party. Anywho, these past 2 days have been BEAutiful! I've been taking the girls out and about without coats and while strapping Jordan into her car seat, jacket less remind you, I noticed it just wouldn't get tight, like at all! There was a solid 3 inch gap between her body and the chest buckle when pulled up on, WTF. I can't believe I have been driving around with her for 3 months like that, I am so thankful we never got in an accident. I was on a mission now to get a new car seat and get one fast. Turns out babiesrus is having their trade in event which worked out great! I ended up getting a graco snugride ( we had the graco safeseat) and I'm loving it already. It's much lighter, way less bulky, actually fits on shopping carts and most importantly Shorty Jordy fits in it :)As an added bonus it has a little pink on it, haha I know Peter will think that's the only reason I got a new one. In all seriousness though I truly feel like she is a million times safer now.